Doubt and trust

Doubt and trust

Calm pool of water

Smooth as rolled steel plate

Clear right to your rock-hard bottom

“Dive in!” and, Lord, I want to

Dry and separate

Alone, with just a fig leaf

Ephemeral as a baby’s coo

But heavy as lead

Part for me

Not all, but only fingertips

Accept me

Let me slip into your depths

It won’t be forever, I swear

I do have some buoyancy, somewhere

It will come back to me

I will rise again

Of course, I know your finitude

Trust me, I cannot ignore it

But just for now,

Pretend with me